RememBer tHE Name

Nurul

2007-06-21T10:14:00.000-07:00

If u guys haf been reading my blog, i ever mentioned bout tis girl who caught my eye and my heart along with it... The one whom i tried so hard to get to know her, for one whole yr, and turns out to be my brother's ex and the hurtful part was, it was only for 3days. My bro still had the cheek to say, ' abg cuma nk fling je ngan dia, tk interested ah dgn pompuan mcm dia'.... translation: ' i only wan to play wif her heart, i gt no interest in her at all...'
It sounds so bad....
So u all remember the girl i'm toking bout nw?
And now, i guess the wheels haf revovles ard, on another person...and to make sense wat i'm saying..... My brother played wif her heart, and nw she played wif mine....
what happened.....?
ok, start from the beginning of 2nd part,.... i finally gt through to tis girl, from her new frenster acc,... i can sense she stills love my bro... anyway, she added my bro's frenster acc, and from there, i start makin my move...
Everything was goin smoothly, she gave me her no. and we became frens....had long conversations on phone, and i told her everything.... from the start to nw.... She took everything well....Even ask me to accompany her through the nite, which i am more then willing to....woke her up in morning.... i had made plans to meet her one day, maybe wif frens, then ltr just the two of us....
Suddenly, like an epic movie.... it comes to an end....it was so sudden, feels like, u know, bird dropping hit u right in the face, and u left wonderin, wat did i do wrong to the bird....
She suddenly stopped everything, seriously, if u dont believe me, u can ask her urself....tats wat i tried to do until nw, i finally gave up.... She stop msging me, replying my msg, callin me, answering my call.... i tried to get answers from her... i keep msging her, keep callin her....all to no avail.... u cannot imagine wat i've been through tis past few days.... i tried to rent a car, to keep my mind of her....and tat, was also a failure.... at first, i tot, maybe she lost her phone or her phone was stolen...so i tried to confirm it by using someone else hp to msg her....suprisingly she replied.... tat shocked me so much....straightaway i msg her, saying i nd answers...she replied wat? ....can u believed it, her last msg to me was a three letter word which actualli doesnt exist in a proper english spelling dictionary.-wad-. i was so heartbroken and depressed....
SOme of my guys told me, ' Aku rase ni pompuan mmg sengaja ah...dia mmg nk buat pat kau apa yg abg ko buat pat dia' and ' Dia agaknya tk nk lyn ko psl dia takot akan jadi same, mane lagi tumpah lauk kalau tk ke nasi, dia ingat krg brothers rollin2 pompuan'
translation: ' I think tis girl wants revenge on ur brother by doin it to u' and ' Maybe she thinks tat both u brothers r the same....rollin girls to each other'

Bt seriously guys, and girls, those who know me....am i like tat....haf i been a heartbreaker? i know i did mention it in my few early blog, bt so far i've been a heartbroken... u all think i' m like my bro? if yes, pls tell me, i will change my personality.... haiz.... till tday, i still haven get any answers for her yet... to think my bro got her heart to easily only to end up with me being 'dumped' by the same girl he dumped..... ya i know, she and me haf no connections yet, we r just frens, bt frens dont suddenly disappear just like tat, i treated her as a fren also, i didnt rush into things like hw i used to last time.... I JUST WANT ANSWERS

Nw, i've deleted her no. ....all her msgs.... bt the memories of wat we used to talk abt...the dreams i had planned.... a whole yr of wanting something to happen btwn me and the girl...nw all gone.....just like tat... still some things are still hard to forget....haiz....

I dont why its happening to me, bt the only mild conclusion i can make up rite nw is, maybe its retribution of wat my brother did to all the many2 girls' heart he broke.... and all the retribution is taking on me..... I guess tats wat people call, family ties cannot be broken. ' Air dicincang tk akan putus' I'm nt saying all tis so tat u all will start hating my brother...bt its more of, in tis story, he played the biggest part in everything.... Till then, u guys take care aite....dont be like me...life for me haf no meaning anymore, bt i still wont resort to commitin suicide, dont worry...i know u guys will miss me...haha.

----RememberTHE Name----

2007-06-15T03:50:00.000-07:00

Hey, its me again.... tis entry is goin to be all abt my first ever experience drivin on the road without a certified instructor beside me, haha....
My dad rent a car, nt just any car, its a hyundai trajet...a mpv, 8-seater... my aunt sponsor, cause they goin to mlysia on thurs, i cannot follow coz my passport only get on fri...wasted... bt, anyway, i gt the permission of my dad to take it for a ride after he took the keys... hairi followed me, for the first part of the journey...
First part was ok, much learning and adaptin to the car... had to sent stuffs to houses in east...my mum and dad was wif us...Nag Nag Nag all the way.... My mum was like, 'ayah betol2 nk kasi hairi pakai kreta ni nanti, seram ah ibu, ni kreta org, bkn kita nya' Coz i nearly hit a lorry wif my side mirror and drove in the road shoulder for one whole minute without realising, haha....
Then after sending my dad and mum home,- mum left wif alot of doa tat i will selamt balik, haha... left me and hairi...went to fetch jai and sham at 749...then the nite has begun....
We went to mandai to fetch my bro from work, he works at nite safari.... there, he insist on drivin for a few kms, i finally mengalah... btw he gt no licence, so if kena tahan, my licence is at stake...bt luckily nothin happen except for the part where he nearly went up the kerb... after sending my bro home, psl he was tired and dont wan to follow us, we went to seletar dam...i recommend this place to couples, very romantic.... on our way, we gt stop at a road block,, so unlucky...bt its ok,' Sir, are we in any trouble'...i ask the cop, haha. then he explain tat i gt four lives in my hand... and advice me to drive safely...wat the hell...haha
then we reach seletar dam, it was so romantic, tat everyone wans to call their partners....tapi wat to do, no reception there, haha... so we hang out there for 30 mins b4 proceedin to geylang, to get some ciggys and to show hairi the nite life there, haha....
So many cars there, bt luckily my car didnt made any contact wif none of them....after tat, we left the place to changi, to show hairi the nite life there...
Otw, we decide to stop by at OCH....and somethin happen there, hmmmm, u can ask me urself, dont wan to say anythin nw..... after changi, we went to bedok to meet some girls....which sham gt to know online... then i realise, time was running out, had to pass the car to my dad by 6 am, and i'm still in bedok at 530 am....so rushed back home, after sending hairi, sham back home...
Overall, it was damn fun.... i loved driving so much.... still gt much improvement to do though...esp in parking...the whole nite, each time i parked, i took 2 parking space...haiz...haha...
Anyway, to the Aniza, Has, Ida and Yan....relaks, kita tk ajak psl mlm, krg mane le kluar mlm nya... Maybe nxt wk, we sewa another car, i willing to drive the whole day for u all, duit sewa, we share2 eh, ahah..... take automatic, manual is so damn hard and tiring to drive whole day...til then take care...

..-;;;Remember THE Name;;;-..

2007-06-12T22:44:00.000-07:00

i keep on wondering to myself, wat is the programme anugerah missing nowadays, its seems so untalented...bt when i watch the video, the culprit is u aniza, they r missing a great talented singer like u... btw nxt time, dont mention gay when u display the picture of him with me, esp when i'm havin long hair...my water-face drop u know...haha

And happy 20th birthday to the ever so-childish hairi....

updates

2007-06-10T01:57:00.000-07:00

One moment i was feelin down, then next moment, i was so abt to explode in hapiness and it all ended up wif me feelin so very down, i haf nvr been so depressed in my life...

I'm nt sure wat to do nw..... In case u all r askin wat happened,...i failed my reassessment, meaning, i haf to repeat my sem because of this f*cking module.... i cant seem to bring myself together ever since tat moment where the lecturer told me tat she's 'afraid she's goin to fail me'.... its like, wat haf i done to deserve all this.... i haf nvr enjoyed my time in nursing....excepet for the frens i've made, the bonds tat was formed, the fun we all had, bt other den tat....everything else sucks... I haf struggle all the way since i first step into NYP, april 2005....ever since yr1, i try to accept the fact tat i am goin to go through this for the next 3 yrs of my life...nvr haf i expected for it to stretch to 4 yr, and i may even haf to rpt another sem in yr3...u nvr know... Up til nw, i still haven accept tat fact, i suffered in silence...everyone thinks i look ok, i am enjoying my time in school, in tutorial rm, in lecture halls....bt the truth is, my mind keep on thinkin, y am i still in NYP, am i doin the rite thing...y am i forcing myself to do sometin i dont like...y i join nursing then....my parents, and a 'guranteed' carrer life....WEll guess wat, reality check, tat guaranteed thingy, its BULL-SHIT...

JUST IMAGINE THIS,>>>>>YOU R DOING SOMETHIN WHICH U DONT LIKE FOR THE WHOLE OF YOUR LIFE<<<<

Be it clinicians, be it lecturer, be it practitioner....its still nursing...maybe i'm nt meant to save life.... when my life itself is in ruin.... Haiz, am i just goin to go on like this... People think i'm qutting half-way because i gave up...tats nt the case, its nt becoz i'm giving up, if so, i would haf done tat earlier...its more of, i dont wan to waste my time doin something which i am nt gettin or gainin anything from.... this is only yr 2 and i already haf to rpt two sem...wat then in yr 3..... am i goin to be kick out of sch... might as well i quit nw and start workin, at least i gain somehtin from tat...and maybe join NS when i'm called up... I still haven made up my mind yet...my parents want me to continue...bt i'm still nt ready to go on doin nursing again...

Anyway, tat short moment of happiness was due to my success in getting my much-wanted class 3 licence.... much i'm still nt sure whether its worth it... i mean rpting another sem or getting tat licence?...

ANyway, to make things worst, the way i failed, i just dont deserve it... i was the only student during reassessment who wasnt receiving any form of help, nt even a hint... the lecturer wasn't even paying attention to anything i said... haiz.... Need the full story, just contact me, i'll be more than happy to story-tellin wif u.... till then take care...

2007-06-10T01:55:00.001-07:00

Nvm, i found the liberty to copy and paste, haha....duh

Haiz, tom is my dooms-day, gt bio pract exam at 9 to 10 am, and i haven even study a single sentence from the lecture notes, serious,.... coz i've been busying focusing on my clinical practical exam so much tat, i failed it....BUmmer rite...well, i dont think i deserve it though... same goes to the others who had the same lecturer assessing them for tat skills....Its a wonder...all those whom she failed r only malays....being racist, there's a possibility....i only found out after everyone ask everyone.... guess its not our luck tis time...NVM, there's still the retest...hopefully i can pass tat one... Why i failed....hmmm, let me see, i'm a systematic type of guy...i do things in an orderly manner...so basically, i learn and understand things from step 1 all the way to step 10...and if u're to ask me from step 1, then jump to step 4 and continue back to step 2 then jump again to step 8.....even AH Meng the orang utan is goin to smack u in the head, wat more me....Anyway, the highlight of the week, or the month, or maybe the year...is i'm goin to haf my Traffic Police Test tom, and after 5 long mths of bookin, its finally here.... its either pass or fail.... all i know is i'm confident of drivin after goin for three straight revision lessons.... Hopefully, i dont break my parents heart and wallet by failing it.... To make things worst, i cant handle another failure in my life...for tis week tat is....I already failed clinical, bio....like duh, obvius failure...haf to struggle to pass it tis semester...all hopes for the end of semester exam, bio prac cover 35% and main exam is 65%, still gt chance to pass, bt so far my record, i fail my bio each sem which i fail my bio prac...so gd luck to me.... so back to failure....i already fail one, comin soon another one, and if TP also same( touch and go, touch and go)....total HEART BREAK....Anyway, admist all this, i just need someone to be there for me...emotionally...physically....a ear to listen to my problems, a pair of wings to lift me up to my two feet again, the air to rejuvenate me to my fullest of confidence.... its true, i haf frens, close frens, bestest of frens, brothers... Hairul, Nathan, Sufyan, FArhan, JAi, Sham, Wak, Kak Leha, Aniza, Syahidah, Hastuty, Izyan, Miza, Hairi and many others for me to turn to, bt there is tis sort of feelins where u need to reveal to someone closer to u....U wan her to be there when u need her, for u to be needed when she feels the same too.... I'm confused...i'm nt embarrased to say tis bt sometimes i feel like crying in my sleep.... too much is goin through my mind, so much tat i dont think i can handle it anymore...I may seem ok, bt inside me, nobody knows....till u see me again, take care

........Remember THE Name.....

huh?

2007-06-10T01:52:00.000-07:00

For my previous entry, go to this blog---www.hinkin-jack.blogspot.com--- i dont know how my entry end up there...haha... If u wan to read it, u can go there...its just one personal entry.

Updates on my Life

2007-05-30T05:04:00.000-07:00

Hey guys, sorry for the absence...been busy, just finished two icas tis wk and to sum it up, well, we did well considering the fact we only got two wks to rush for two icas, nt including the fact tat our grp members end up sick every day last wk, including me... Well, first qn we asked the lecturer after each icas will be, ' So hw, do we pass?' and all of them say yes, only tat whether we did well or nt, but heck, pass is enough to make me fulfilled.... Anyway, both icas didnt end well though... first ica, HS2118.1, we had to present on nature vs nuture, and we kinda rushed through it, delgating three of our 7 grp members to do it, while the other three, me scorpion, and nathan did on chronic illness. so ya, u all will be askin, ' hw bout the last member?' Well, basically, she didnt do anything, coz we couldnt contact her and she didnt contact us at all...so it kinda pissed some of my grp members off...and they complain to our lecturer bout it, rite b4 the presentation...to make things worse, tat xtra grp member arrived exactly at the point when they just complain bout her...so blah, blah , blah..... class nt happy, dont know for wat crap...first of all, it doesnt concern u guys, nothin personal....and the one tat is affected is my grp so stop complaining and giving all kind of comments and punishments coz its none of ur business.... the lecturer also piss me off...she wants some excuse why all tis happened, and when we told her tat we had time constraints, she said ' well, to put it bluntly, its ur problem, u should resolve it yourself' ... so y the f**k did u ask us for our excuse then.... and u're the lecturer for some freakin reasons rite...nt just sittin on ur butt and pretend to listen to our icas, and givin stpid comments at the end....
The next day, our next ica, well this time, its nt anyone's fault, bt ours... wat happend? well, we kinda pissed the lecturer tis time, haha...anyway, the lecturer is a different one, tis one's better...she was givin her comments, and helpin us on how to improve our next ica if there is any, and some of my grp mates were nt happy, so they argued back and i was like, shut up la, just accept her comments.... bt too late, she abruptly stopped everythins and says she doesn't wan to continue anymore...luckily she say she will nt penalise us for anythin because of our actions, phew.....
Anyway, everything's over, and we should think abt the future and speaking of future, nxt wk, i'll be havin my clinical practical, bio practical exam, 2118 mock test and to make things worse, my car traffic police test which i'm nt confident of passing.... so basically, all tis stress is makin me considerin on quittin being an ex-smoker and join the clan back.... SMokin Is MY OnlY EscApade... C YA....

.....Remember THE Name.....

Absence

2007-05-20T20:25:00.000-07:00

Sorry Guys for the long absence...... i've been sick, very sick.... ever since i quitted smokin, ya, its true.... its been two wks plus.... first day after quitting, i gt a high fever, my temp reached 39.6 C.... didnt go to sch for two days....then i recover, bt still having chills and coughs... then the next wk, i gt infected again, bt this time its, URTI..... swallowing have nvr been so painful before...my phelgm was greenish colour.... damn... and tat wk, i had two ica.... so even though i wasn't feelin well, i had to come to school....
Haiz, feel like giving up....its like ever since i quitted smokin, my life have nt been the same again... I feel lonely, as if there's something missing in my heart and mind...
Sorry if i've changed...bt i cant help it...guess i am goin to write a short entry tis time...have to do my research for nxt wk ica, i haf 2 ica and we haf nt even started doing anything, i haf my clinical theory test tis wed, and comin up is my practical exam, and in two wks time, i am goin to haf my traffic police test and i dont think i am ready to face the tester......HELP!!!!! I'm Stressed>>....>>

The same girl

2007-04-26T20:36:00.000-07:00

Life in school haf been the same....and i'm happi to declare tat i haf turn into a new leaf,....cant figure out wat i'm trying to imply? Well, my attendance is till in 100% and since its already two wks since school started, its a record to be proud of, haha.....
Hmmm.....I cant seem to understand girls...still, haha.... One moment, they wan to play hard to get, next thing is they will be all over you, haha...nt on me ah....just as a whole picture... Bt nothing personal...
Updates on the girl.... guess, there is still no progress...totally nothing... gt her no. , gt her msn, gt her frenster, bt i still cannot get through to her... Yan told me the only way is to meet this girl personnally, bt, i dont know where she lives exactly, where she always hang out in school, where she hang out outside school, heck, the last time i saw her was like one wk plus.... since then, no sight of her at all.... She may even have been cease to exist at all in the first place. Bt i will heed the peeps advice and strive, dont give up... 'Kau lum buat apa2 pun, kau da mengaku kalah...'
Anyway, peeps around me who are close to my heart, are having rltnship probs... break-ups, calling off wedding, quarrels, third-party...... All i can say is, in every relationships, there is bound to be obstacles...its either u fall,pick urself up and be a stronger couple or u can just gif up and lose the fight...thus, losing everythin u haf been fighting for....
If our parents can continue on, get married, have children and still be happily married, wat makes us any weaker....We haf their genes pe...haha. Anyway, nt trying to say tat i da fikir jauh, bt they are one example right in front of our eyes....learn from them...
Ya i know, its easier to say then done....Bt, like wat good frens do, i try to help as much as i can, nt to be the extra person, bt just to give advices when i haf any....
So guys, take care, dont get stress.....Live LIFE to The Fullest....Esp with ur loved ones....

----Remember THE Name----

the girl

2007-04-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

Sorri guys for the absence of entries tis past few days..... i've told u all already tat i'll be busy, haha....
Anyway.... first wk of school is ok, nt bad... my new class, NR0608.... they are kinda quiet, compared to my ex-class.... my class will be like answering qns even b4 the lecturers ask, bt the new class, is like, the teacher will ask ard and after like 5 min, she will resort to callin up names... my fellow classmate, who i call scorpion, also same case as me, havin tat xtra sem, ya, he's the one who will be answering the qns.... As for me, i am havin this culture-shock thingy... coz, to those who knew me, i'm always noisy in class... There was this one time in class, i was sittin with hairi and izzat, the lecturer ask qns, and i keep shouting out the right ans, bt its was like she ignored all my ans la eh..., feelin fed up already, i changed my mind and instead shouting out all my crappy ans... and ironically, tat idiotic lecturer can hear my stupid ans, and told me tat if i give such stupid ans, i have to sit outside lab... like wtf... first of all, does polytechnic still carry out tat stupid punishment, secondly, is this lecturer deaf or is she just being bias...
Enough of her.....anywae, i just found out something very funny and very annoying crazy... maybe something frustating too... the story goes like this... i had tis thing for this girl who i saw at the smoking alley, i bump into her at the train the same day again,....all this happen early 2006...after tat day, i made up my mind to try to find out who tis girl is and want to get to know her ah... So i always skip lectures just to be at the smokin alley, went through frens friendster list just to find her, bt ever since tat day, i nvr met her... at all........ the the funny part ah... like, is she an angel or wat... days, months have gone past... i knda forgot abt her... then one day, my bro, who kinda always having flings, told me he gt to know this girl from SCL of NYP, and he is chasing after her...i was like, so.... like normal for him ah... days ltr, he told me, he is already going out wif this girl... i pay no attention to it, he ask me whether i wan to know this girl, bt i told him i gt better things to do...
Bt like always, tat rltnship was off....He's back to the single life, chasing after other girls...like i predicted.... So life goes on....until last last wk..., i was going thorugh my frens frienster pictures with no ulterior motives, then i stumbled upon the 'one', the 'girl''s pic.... so i asked my fren who she was, after getting all my info, i found out she is from SCL, yr 2....i didnt suspect anything.... then i asked another fren recently, and she was suprised, coz she tot i know her, so the next thing she said, solves everything..... the answer, i'm the idiot......
'La, kau kan kenal dia'
'Huh, apa kau mepek? Kalau aku kenal dia, aku nk tanya kau lagi buat pe...'
'Dia kan selalu lpak ngan abg kau dulu'
'Yg dia nk lpak ngan abg aku buat apa?'
' Mane aku tahu, kau tanya la abg kau'
So i asked, and guess wat.... all along, she was right there for me to know, and being the typical idiot....i had to ignore tat fact....haiz.... Ya, She's my bro's ex.....
So wat am i going to do nw?......Hmmm...it may sound crazy, but i am after my bro's ex....

----Remember The Name----

New Timetable

2007-04-14T00:01:00.000-07:00

New semester, new timetable and new classmates, bt still same old yr 2 student.....haiz.... haha, i kinda regret havin to repeat one semester, and thus will be having an extra semester unlike the normal 6 semester...... Bt look at the bright side....get to spend more time at the Smokin Alley, with the SAC, haha, proud to be a member..... also, get to make new frens and feel alot senior to the juniors who just enter NYP..... Anywae, i wan to 'dedicate' this entry to my previous grp HS0518 classmates..... wont be in the same class as them anymore, bt the 3 sem or is it 4 sem??? nt sure, bt i enjoyed every moment we had in class, tat is wen i come for them ah.... the bunch of us, which is ard 25 students i think, always been noisy, lively, fun, smart, lame, and many more, have been on every lecturers nerves...... Yet they always end up enjoying the time time spend teachin us.... we appreciate them too, hopefully ah.... ANyway.....this entry is abt the 25 stud and nt the lecturers, some other time maybe, haha...... even though sometime we have our own cliques here and there bt whenever we are in the tut room or clinical lab....we all share one heart and soul.... our first yr and half of 2nd yr, we had mdm ho wee ling as our mentor.... she's one adorable lecturer, haha.... she taught us alot of stuffs, and her constant nagging are missed till nw.... i still remember the time when we had tis bbq thing at jln kayu, organized by our ever so hardworking mdm ho.... all i can say is, she is one dedicated lecturer who cares for her students like her own children..... anyway back to my ex-classmates, all of them will be promoted to yr 3 tis upcomin 16 april.... congrats to them... hopefully all of u will achieve the main goal, the DIPLOMA IN NURSING.... Gd LUck..... ya, i know, the dedication kinda short, so maybe ltr or tom, i will write the second part....tat is if i am free ah...which i always am, only the problem is whether i'm lazy or nt....haha... See YA
----Remember The Name----

Confessions

2007-04-09T01:40:00.000-07:00

Here i am, blogging again, had a rough wk, nw me and my father are nt in talking terms, we cant even face each other..... guess i deserved it.... I even heard him mentioning to my mum, saying he doesn't even care whther i and my bro are his sons or nt.....
It was a misunderstanding, i had a breakdown, and instead of crying, it wasn't a breakdown, it was more of an outburst, i lashed out at my mum...no, there was no physical contact, bt alot of shoutin here and there, and it happened at 1am..... my father was angry caused i raised my voice, and i was angry from him getting involved, and i guess, he had every right to... i almost had a fight, and fight as in physically fight with him, if not for my mum holding me back....
At tat moment, it was as if, i was the devil, it was as if, the devil suddenly took control of my body, every i said and do, and nt my intention......it was just coming out of my mouth.... i even threaten to go away and nvr to come back to my house again.... i went down my block, feeling nothin but fury and anger.... hatred towards something but i dont know wat it was....
every thing i saw seems nt rite....
Few hours haf pass, my guys, jai and sham, and also my bro, talk to me, and calmness start to fill my mind back.... i start to feel differently, i feel regret, i feel disappointed..... if only i could turn back time..... i went back home after a nite full of remorse and much thinking..... their advice was tat i go home, haf a good rest and think bout it again, try apologising....
Bt i like i said once, and i will say it again, no matter wat the situation is, 'Sorry Seems To Be The HArdest Word'......
Guess i haf to live life like it is and hope things will turn out better, even it is just small, i will apreciate it alot......
PS: As for my previous post, abt breaking girls' hearts, i hate the feelin, or even doin it and i dont think its something to be proud of.....

Regrets....

2007-04-07T08:03:00.000-07:00

I dont know wat happened or wat went into me yesterday nite... bt i sure know wat the outcome was.... i regretted having tat attitude or acting tat way.... you all will be asking wat hapeened, wat happened.... guess, my parents were the victim because of my outburst.... i dont even know wat i writin now..... everything is just all mixed up in my mind.... i'm sitting in front of my com, staring blankly and typing stuffs which goes through my mind rite nw.... Hw i wished schools starts sooner and i will have nothing better to do or think other than schools.....I guess My life Sux, tats all.... will be updating abt wat happen soon....

Stressed again

2007-04-06T05:15:00.000-07:00

Nt sure whose fault it was, bt i sure regretted the outcome...its been days since i last tok with her on the phone, or even chat with her online.... Probably its my ego, or the fact tat, i over-reacted and didnt realize wat i just did... all i know nw is, i wan everything to be the same agian, back to normal, forget everythin tat had happens.... Maybe we can even start anew.... 'Hi, my name is zul, wats yours?'
Nw i'm nt sure wat i should do, should i call her up and apologize to her sincerely? Sould i pretend nothing had happen, its normal for this things to happen....or should i... just lose contact with her....
All i can say is, 'Sorry seems to be the hardest word.....'

Soccer

2007-04-01T09:08:00.000-07:00

Congrats to Liverpool, Manchester United and Chelsea for their victories yesterday night.... Personnally, i'm an Arsenal Fan and proud to be one...maybe, nw is nt the right time to confess after their recent losses....Bt i'm still am faithful and will carry on supporting them.... why i support arsenal, well, its simple...their extravagant way of playing the game of football... maybe nt the way they handled authorities and the media...bt their slick passing and quick counter-attacks, their one-touches and one-two passings will amaze every fans, even from supporters of other clubs... Currently their form have dropped maybe due to the fact tat henry, van persie and walcott are out injured, bt tats nt a good excuse for the results they are getting....well, we will see hw the young gunners cope in other upcoming games....
Btw, to all those liverpool fan who are laughin their ass of to the arsenal fans, well, remember the times where arsenal beat them three straight games in this season and together will yesterday game, arsenal still lead with 11 goals to 9 goals liverpool scored, bt to the other liverpool fans, congrats to the victory, your team deserve it with the way they played yesterday and crouch's amazing form...

.........Remember THE Name..........

......Tired......

2007-03-31T11:05:00.000-07:00

Haiz.....I'm confused right nw,...No, i'm confused ever since holidays started.....
Firstly, after five wks, i still havent get a job....maybe due to the lack of effort given....
Secondly, the soccer team which me and yan wans to set up is still lacking of man-power, and lacking of commitments.....
Thirdly, i'm sick of giving my everything to something and getting nothing in return....

Who the hell u think i am....u can play around with anyone's feelings, but mine is out of bound...
i'm sick of being this good guy who respects girls for who they are, i'm tired for being taken advantage due to tat fact....i treated every girls the same, exception to those who i haf feelings for....bt wat do i get,.....guess wat, nothing.....

I've always hated the way some guys think of girls, and the way they treat them....bt everything seem to make sense nw..... Enough is enough for me and i'm going to put an end to everything...
No more Mr-Nice-Guy, i had enough of girls hurting me emotionally,playing around with my feelings and breakin my heart like as if its some piece of fragile glass where u can discard when its broken, nt tat i'm emotionally weak or wat,.... Nw its time for power-change, my turn... Breaking people's heart never seem so iressistable till today
....... introducing the new me.......

......Remember THE Name.......

New Blogger in The HOuse

2007-03-30T10:39:00.000-07:00

Welcome everyone to this new blog.....i've just created this blog few weeks ago but it was so plain, so i decided nt to write anything first....bt courtesy of my good fren, yanhadi, this blog haf change from a ugly duckling to a beautiful swan....so nw i am going to write my first ever entry in this magnificient world of blogging......LAME......
Anyway, people will ask y i suddenly start having a blog....well, i find blogging fun and relaxing.... i admit, at first. i find blogging, girlish, i mean, which guy owns a diary,..... rite guys...., i know, it sounds bias and naive, bt i cant help it....i haf tat mindset until i gt my own com and internet.....i started blog-hopping....and it suddenly evovles into something, more of a hobby, a silent listener where u tell ppl everything u haf in mind and the listener will nt say anything to oppose u.....i gt so interested in it, so tats y i started this new hobby...
Enough of the introduction of this blog, nw i'm going to introduce myself...... i'm a guy who will probably be a nurse after 3-4yrs time, including NS....bt i was and still am, hoping to be a paramedic instead. i cant stand the idea of being stuck in a place, which is the ward, and having a systematic way of doing things....everything seems so routine, so boooring. Some find it perfect, bt me....nah.....i'm adventurous.... Btw, i'm studying this course in NYP...., y NYP, coz its near my house, which is in yishun.....bt i still takes ard 30 to 1 hr to reach school....like to take my own sweet time....
Right now, i having a holiday, so i have all the time in the world to write entries, bt as soon as school starts again, i know i wont be this hardworking....so i apologize in advance to those who will be looking forward to my entries....haha, damn, i sound so thick-skin.....
So till then....gdnite

--Remember The Name--

2007-03-28T18:22:00.000-07:00

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